I just fricking failed SWIMMING& CALCULUS, FUCK YEAH.

I'm doomed to fail every semester. LOL, whatever. I just don't care anymore...

Yeah, I really need to. Like, HELL. I don't think I can stand another full year of despair in Architecture... T_____________________T I really need to work hard this time. & this time, I have to make sure I get things right. Hopefully, I won't screw up like I did during my freshman year, which I fully regret. I am such a damn lazy & incompetent fool...

If it would be possible (& if I could make it) for me to shift to a different degree program, particularly in MULTIMEDIA ARTS (which I wish I should have known earlier...), then I guess I'll give a try going to MAPUA (Ho-- shi-!! For real...?!?). I dunno... I think St. Benilde is just too creepy for me (Hello, it's still La Salle...)

Right now, I'm checking on MAPUA & St. Benilde's websites respectively to see which is easier. (I'm planning waaaaay ahead when I still have other problems to take care of... TxT IDIOT.) Damn, I wish I could make it in time soon... XO

We actually had two kittens. The first kitten didn't die, he actually just went missing no less than a week when we first found them, despite the fact that he looked actually weaker than the other one. The other one, however, went on his way...

( Kitty drama here )

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Well, let's get down to more serious business, coz I'm really off pissed right now.

WARNING! Rant up ahead! Proceed with caution.

( SAI HELP...? )

LOL, like... just HAPEE BIRTHDAE TO ME~~~ <3 Gosh, I feel old...

We made a record!!





WHOOOOO~~~ Go Lasallians!!! We Just made history!! It was tiring, but worth the while, I guess. Go, LASALLIANS!!!! ANIMO LA SALLE!!

YES! SHORT HOLIDAY VACATION IS <3... Finally, I can draw again. GOD, I missed SAI & Photoshop...

I'm crying in front of the computer right now, while fixing my College online registration for the 2nd semester. Good thing my mom is sleeping, she wont need to see any of this. Well, anyways...

Seriously, FUCK. I feel like an asshole. I really want to just give up & stop schooling. I just can't take it anymore!! FUCK IT!

I dont want to anymore because I know my limits. & I know I've reached the point where I can no longer go on. Like, failing 2 subjects (1 major ARCH subject & 1 MATH subject)& barely passing the rest... Yeah, it can get any worse so I think it's good enough that I barely passed. I know it's my goddamn fault I failed those goddamned subjects because I didnt try any harder. But still, it really is quite disappointing, both to me & my parents

... & I hate myself for that.

I know it's dumb to go saying, 'I dont wanna go to school anymore' &, 'I give up! Just let me stop schooling.' I really want to do so, if this is the path I'm going into. Most especially since I really didnt want to take the course I'm taking right now (I'm in Architecture) that's probably why I flunked my subjects & never went serious about it. X(

I cant go bitching at my folks again. My mom already scolded me many times because I kept on saying I can't do it. My father keeps on pushing me to go onwards, despite these failures. I hate it so much...

I'm still going to school for the 2nd semester, with 5 cancelled subjects, only so I could do my folks a favor, not for myself. It has been already hard enough for me to be in a course I really didnt like much, & now it will get even harder as I am now an irregular student. I wont be able to attend those 5 cancelled subjects & see my friends & classmates more often. IT SUCKS.

Well, enough stupid rants. What's done is done. I cant really do much about it, so I'll just have to face the facts & go on with my GODDAMN FUCKING STUPID ASSHOLE LIFE.

Hooray!! FINALLY!! Moar tiem to draw!! XDD Man, am I sooooo happy!!

Although, I'm sad that I cant be with my friends for a while, especially when we were told that we will get re-shuffled with another section. T___________T

Well, whatever! DAMN YOU, LA SALLE FOR RE-SHUFFLING US!!!

EDIT (18.49; 18-OCT-2008)

Okay... So I think I flunked most of my MAJOR Subjects. That's IT! I GIVE UP!!! T___T